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Yes.It's been a while.
It's one of those "I'm too busy and lazy to blog" periods once again.
Haiz.
Pardon me really.The body is strong but the mind is weak.
.......
Anyway.
It's with a rather puzzled mind that I m blogging now.
Well.You may believe it or not.
But it's been years since I last shed tears.
Honest.
I always felt it's stupid to cry.
Maybe I am truely dumb on because I think that way.
But back to the point.
I woke up yesterday morning to find my eyes puffy and swollen.
And somehow.
I knew I must have cried in my sleep somehow or another the previous night.
And as if confirming my doubts.
Upon that very thought.
The details of last night's dream came flooding to my mind.
Man.
It felt so damn real.
So vivid.
Like it was happening right before my eyes.
I shall try to the best of my memory narrate the dream that I had.
It began somewaht like this.
In my dream.
I think I was cycling on the road.
Or running.
And suddenly.I heard a loud crash.
Obviusly.An accident had occured.
A girl had been knocked down.
From a distance.
She seemed to be relatively the same age as me.
Thus I think calling her a woman would be more appropriate.
Just that she was so short.
Anyway.
I was curious so I decided to go over and take a look.
And damn.
Was I shocked when I saw who it was.
It was my primary school classmate.
A girl that I used to like in Primary School.
Of course.We're all grown up now.
And that was so long ago.
So I guess that the feelings are all pretty much gone.
Besides.I haven't met her for like...almost a decade?
But yet.
The strange thing was that.
In my dream.
When I saw her lying down there in a pool of blood.
I suddenly extreme sadness and sorrow.
For no reason at all.
I mean.
Yes.She was a classmate of mine.
And eys.I used to like her.
But it's been so long.
Why would I feel so sad.
I didn't even feel this degree of sadness when my grandpa died.
So it was pretty strange.
Of course.
What followed in the dream was pretty much like a script.
I called the ambulance.
And her parents.(surprisingly I could still remember her house number.)
The amublance came.
They came.
She was sent to the hospital.
And she died.
I think it must have ben this point of time that I began crying pathetically.
Really pathetically.
In my dream that is.
Therefore.
The fact that my eyes were actually swollen and puffy from crying in my dream.
Actually showed the degree of sadness I was feeling.
And once again.
I would like the emphasize the fact that I couldn't have cried because I still had feelings for the girl.
So it simply didn't make sense at all.
In the end.
I could only think of one reason.
And that is that my subconscious was trying to tell me something.
Maybe like.
A vision or something.
Sounds funny huh.
But to me.The feeling was so strong.
That I decided to ask my 2 friends who did psychology for their opinions.
On my dream.
And somehow.
Both Sheena and Kevin told me that.
This dream symbolizes a kind of regret.
Like of something that should have been done yet not done in the past.
Which most likely is gonna happen again.
I was puzzled by their words then.
Until today.
When I fainlly grapsed the full meaning of their words.
Guess I gotta do soeme deep thinking now guys.
Chow.
Monday, December 06, 2004
Haven't been blogging for a while yet again.Well.Partly out of laziness but also partly due to the fact that I had been busy with so many things this past month.To start off with.The renovations at my hosue have been going on for almost a month now.And even though major stuff like tiling of the floor,rewiring of the electrical system and the revamping of the 2 toilets in the house have been pretty much completed,I don't see the completion of the renovations for the entire house coming anytime soon.To begin with,there was still the installation of the the new furniture for both me and my sister's rooms.Also,at the very last minute,my mum decided to change the wall tiles in the kitchen to suit the new furnishings.Thereby leaving the litchen walls bare and empty at the present moment.Not to mention the repainting of the entire house.
And what's worse was.The contractors are really taking their own sweet time with things.Which is making the entire family furious.School was starting for me soon.Which meant I would no longer be able to stay at home at look after the renovation works.Not toe mention the fact that msot of my holiday has been burnt off by these stupid renovation works.Now.As if that wasn't enough.Apparently.The contractors couldn;t be bothered to employ properly skilled stuff to install some of the sutff at home,and instead deployed some of their indian workers who weren't really experts to do the work.Which thus resulted in many mnior problems such as leaking sinks,malfunctioning toilet bowls and etc.
........
Ok fine.Enough about the renovations already I guess.Just hope it'll be all over soon and then the house would look really nice and all for house warming.Really can't wait to see the new look.Now.Besides being real busy with the renovations and all.This being the holiday season and all.Many people would return from studying overseas to spend some time with their families and friends.Well.My 2 good friends Jessie and Bryan are no exception I guess.With them returning.The group gatherings naturally increased exponentially.And I really enjoyed going out the group who hasn;t come out for such a long time.Everyone was always busy with school, work etc.So it was really good to see them when thw whole lot of us met up at Bryan's huge house.Where we had a real good chat and caught with old times and all.Sheena and Andy were as usual.The same.As for Bryan.He really changed tremendously with his return from Aussie.The old computer ignorant and conservative guy was gone.And replaced with a techno savvy and semi-alcholic and Mr happening.
As for Jessie.She was still the same old self.Always smiling and all.Even when me and Sheena teased hear to no end.And interestingly enough.With her return this time.We actually saw her WORKING.As in really working.Now ppl who know her personally like we do would get the joke.Anyway.It's a real cool job.Doing internship at Channel News Asia.Even though the pay is miserable.As for the rest of the group,Lindy,Cindy,Yinghui where we met up at wither Checkers or KTV.They all remianed pretty much the same.Cindy was still doing her high paying marketing job.While Lindy was taking up a job at some cosmetic company during her school holidays.As for Yinghui.She seemed to have taken up A Maths.And like her usual self.Was doing really well.Of course.I was glad to hear that all of us managed to survive school in one way or another.
Now.Besides this old click.I also made a new group friends this holiday.And the cool thing about this new group of friends was that we all stayed in Toa Payoh.Which meant that anytime anyone of us felt bored at night and wanted to come out for supper and all.There was absolutely no problem at all.Yup.They are the group from wholivesnearyou.Though not the entire group.Only the few of us who kept in contact after that first and probably last outing.Kudos to you,Cashe,Cherie,Zichang and Emily.You supper kakis are really indispensable.Haha.
And of course.Due to the fact that I disrupted 3 weeks of my NS liability to go for my studies.This holiday period also meant that I had to serve the remaining of my NS days and finally get to ORD.And let me tell you this.This 3 weeks have gotta be he most enjoyable 3 weeks of my entire NS life.I was literally treated like a king.Apparently.After my disruption.My Madam changed 4 assistants in the short phase of 4 months because she couldn't stand them.And I guess the feeling is pretty much vice versa and mutual for the assistants.Therefore,with my return.I was obviously very welcomed.Now.Before you guys call me an egoistical bastard.I would just like to add that it wasn't because I was good at my job that I was welcomed.But rather.I was the only who fully understood my Madam and could stand her and deal with her.That was the true reason how I survived 2 years of my NS.But hey.It was a really hard time.
But at least.It was finally over.
And before I forget.During the space of my "Blog Absence" this holiday period.I also got back my exam results.And although the results were ok.I still felt that I could have done more.And somehow.I really kinda regret not studying that extra bit during the exams.BUT.What the heck.It's already over.Time to move on and try harder next semester.Still.I can't the fact the REPORT WRITING TEACHER WAS A BITCH!She was so dman freaking biased.Giving most of the girls on our class and some of the guys a bloody C+ for our grade.To think that we even thought she was a pretty nice teacher and all and tired to help her during her observation period.Damn man.If I can;t qualify for varsity because of this C+.I'm so gonna strangle her.But hey.Then again.Glad for the fact that I'll be seeing all of my classmates again next year in the same class.Then again.They're all such freaking hardworking bastards!!!Gonna be another even more stressful year ahead of me.I'm not gonna lose.No matter what.HAHAHAHA.(I'm feeling so oxymoronic now.)
And somehow.This month also seem to be "Relastionship Problems" month.Why do I say that.Simply because I think I've answered enough phone calls from friends who ask me on advice regarding their relationship problems to become Uncle Agony.Hah.And the funniest thing is.I'M NOT EVEN ATTACHED.How am I supposed to know how to solve these problems.Though I really hope that these friends of mine found my advice useful and make up with their partners soon and live happily ever after.(I know I know.I am beginning to mumble nonsense.)
Well.So many things happened during the space of this month.That I really got much more to say.But I guess I would leave them till the next post before all of you fall asleep.Therefore.I'll end here for today.Adios.