I've come to a conclusion.
The month of September is definitely cursed.For me.
Been damn fucked up and fucked upsidedown at the same time.
Got drunk and shouted at someone.Someone really important to me.
A close pal,who has always been stoic and emotionlessly strong.Actually started feeling suicidal.
Misunderstandings between me and 2 buddies are getting from bad to worse.
Results plunged.Even though somewhat expected and deserved.
Mental and physical health going downhill from lack of sleep and indulging in vices.
The punishments received.I know I deserve them.
The mistakes made.I really am sorry.
The bad attitude.I'm trying really hard to change.I really am.
I need a fresh start.
Give me strength God.